|*30th May'07*|

Good Friends still? =?

|*29th May'07*|

Disappointing day.

Shouldn't have wasted my time going for practice today. Could have use the time to study and go home early to see my aunt and cousins. I left "early" but when I reached home they're already leaving, so disappointed la. I hardly see them as they live in Malaysia, plus they're going back tomorrow.. Didn't even get to catch up on our lives... Sian...............=(

And I thought everyone would turn up, was thinking not to go as there's a test tomorrow morning and I haven finish studying, and in the end?

There's no atmosphere at all, no unity, not a family anymore. It's worse than last year I guess.. what happen arh? There's a need for reflection huh.. tsk tsk. No wonder the feeling is GONE.

|*28th May' 07*|

Wah.. I can't believe similar things happen again this Virtuoso.
How to be in tip top condition?
I guess the road to this Virtuoso hasn't been great right from the beginning.
sighh..Pple changed, and I actually kept believing that u're different from the rest. what a disappointment. Pfft.
surprised and caught off guard like before, but its just normal to be disappointed for a while ok, I'm just Human u know.. Forgive me.

But den again His Love is so great that I know I will be alright, and will be happy... u know =)

I hope that I'll be able to blend into the group again. With no barriers.

|*20th May'07*|

I felt that something has been taken away from me.

You know, last time when I have anything that bothers me or something that made me very happy and even some random things that I encounter or thought of, I will tell you. I can easily say out nearly everything.. except for 1 particular thing la..=x You have been someone whom I confide to when anything happens, because I know you can advice me on them, you help me to see the problems in different angle, you help to me take away the anger and you lift me from below. Although sometimes dicussions on certain things just didn't go well, but I know you understand and things will resolve. But now, I am lost. I'm facing the same problem, and yet I can't tell you anymore. I can't even speak to you like before, how I can even speak to you about everything esle? I don't know how it became this way. I have no one who can help me or make me understand what is going on. You, on the other hand know from the beginning till now. I'm being drowned by the overpowering "bad aura". Even if I found someone trustworthy and understanding, that person can only be my listening ear.

I can't be pushed down this way, this is just too much and is getting out of hand, far worst than before. Not everyone sees it because they are not the victims, I see it because I am targetted. This is a result of the temptations from satan to have power over others, self-centred and glory. I could only see the "bad" working but not you(the" good") working. Are you aware of the current happenings? Can you see the injustice? Are you willing to find out? Or are you just being ignorant to it all? You have the position to make it right for everyone, but are you willing to find out? Will your conscience allow these 'bad' things to affect others, to spoil everything for them?

I have no say. I stood out of everything because I respect 'everything'. But it's getting out of control, come back. Please, come to realisation before it's too late.

Sigh... What has this world become to.....

|*18th May' 07*|

Finally found time to post something.

Really had no time to think.. Extremely busy with my Projects. They are really Driving me CRAZY. My schedules are SO PACKED I simply can't find time for anything esle, even finding time to practise my songs are difficult much less having piano class. =S This week will be SO much worse. 2 Projects due, 1 must be 80% done.

I Finally got to browse through the Pictures and I nearly screamed. Why? coz I've NEVER seen myself that Tired, never. Ohh man.. it's just freaking arghh! *Faintz* Premature aging...=.= Pale and.. hmm.. my dark circles.. The 1st thing my lecturer asked me when she saw me was why do I look so sleepy. I guess partly coz I'm not wearing glasses, I can't hide much of my tiredness anymore. Sigh.. premature aging.. gee...=\ My brain.. slowing down.. not good for health.. sigh.. I NEED Sleep..and Recreation!!!

It's Gonna be an Adobe Weekend, coz I hafta complete my Site Analysis A1 Panel by MONDAY!! No need to sleep le.. Using Photoshop and Illustrator, and I need to REVISE the software!

But... I know You are always here to guide me. =D *Blessed*
Manifested by the Lord.

Today is "LD III" Project day. Went to school in the morning to return the cello. After that I went to Clementi Woods Park, to take pictures of the important things. Then, ALL the batteries went FLAT. =.= I guess they are spoiled coz its not even 1hr. So, I went to ntuc @clementi to buy batteries. After that, I went back to the park to continue taking photos. Met xy at 2+ and we headed towards the East. She went to Pasir ris Park and I went to East Coast Park. Pasir Ris Park is 70ha, ECP is 185ha!!! >.< I chose ECP because I thought that it's one of the parks I'm most familiar with. As in what the park offers, NOT where the facilities are. Well, I guess after today I'd probably remember where the facilities are.. in area what.. hahaha!!

Followed the directions that Val gave me, Thanks a Million!! =) Finally reached the park. I thought I can travel by walking, but its just so time consuming, and I think I walked the wrong direction, coz I couldn't find any Bike ksiok in that direction. hmm..? So I hafta walk back to the "main activity" area for a bike. Well, I increased my walking pace of course, and now the sky is threatening rain. When I finally got a bike, I've wasted quite some time..and so I travelled, took pictures on the way. By the time I reached Bedok Jetty, it's drizzling.. to the point which I'd use an umbrella, so I turned back. Thinking back, I should not have, cause it takes me 15-20mins by bike from macs to there. I tried to go back there and further, but I didn't manage to go much further, 1: I'm tired already, 2: time constrain, so basically I didn't get much pictures and it's just to bike around for fun. Its really nice, if there's some1 with me would be nice too.. haha.. got Company ma.. what u'all thinking arhh.. =D

Met wx b4 my 2nd bike trip, thanks for ur company lehh..=X After I returned the bike, we set off a Looong walk to the BIG food centre. haha.. Well, I kinda suggested the idea coz I saw it during attempt trip to the other side of ecp. By the time we reached there, its already dark. HAHA. Geez.. I don't remember how long the trip was, I definitely would not have walk there for food if I were alone. There's actually nice food there, that place is really big but the food is quite expensive.. I would go there for supper IF I have a car. LOLz.. How I wish.. Can sit by the beach to eat too.. watch sunset.. so nice.. ahhh...=X I caught some nice view of the place, but I didn't get the chance to walk along the beach.. sigh.. Went there too late la.. =\ Hopefully the pictures I took are good la.. as in, relevant.

Its really weird to bike/walk around parks with a camera la. I really felt like a Tourist yesterday. People stare a me when I stop my bike to take pictures. Another thing is I actually brought my bus guide along, just to make sure I take the right bus in the right direction (but its a 2005 edition). LOLz. Plus I printed out the map of ecp from nparks website. Took the underpass near the Cable Ski, kinda ulu lohs.. gud thing is 2 pple. Reached the other end which is the back of a condo, dark loh.. tsk tsk.. den walk all the way to the bus stop, we realised there's no 966. =\ so we took a bus down to Parkway Parade, and I didn't noe the opp bus stop is there, so I decided that we alight at the next stop, maybe its nearer. BUT, the bus turned from the round about to amber road.. omg! I was like Ahh!! gud thing it didnt turn to the Expressway.. ohhh mann... damn farnie and paiseh can.. took a bus back to PP to take 966. Pengz... Sorry about that arhh..XD 966 came, we're darn lucky to haf a sit at the back, coz there's a lot of pple, and its a gud 45mins ride back to BP.

I would rather be Low profile than to be high profile in certain situation.

Sometimes I wonder if what I just did was wrong..

|*30th April'07*|

Infatuation is instant desire,
one set of glands calling to another.

Love is friendship that has caught fire.
It takes root and grows,
one day at a time.

Infatuation is marked by a feeling of insecurity.
You are excited and eager,
but not genuinely happy.
There are nagging doubts,
unanswered questions,
little bits pieces about your beloved
that you would just as soon examine too closely.
It might spoil the dream.

Love is the quiet
understanding and mature acceptance of imperfection.
It is real.
It gives you strength and grows beyond you,
to bolster your beloved.
You are warmed by his presence,
even when he is away.
Miles do not separate you.
You want him near.But near or far,
you know he is yours and you can wait.

Infatuation says,
"We must get married right away.
I can't risk losing him."

Love says, "Be patient.
He is yours. Plan your future with confidence."

Infatuation has an element of sexual excitement.
Whenever you are in one another's company
you are hoping it will end in intimacy.

Love is the maturation of friendship.
You must be friends before you can be lovers.

Infatuation lacks confidence.
When he's away, you wonder if he's cheating.
Sometimes you check.

Love means trust.
You are calm, secure, and unthreatened.
He feels your trust and it makes
him even more trustworthy.

Infatuation might lead you to do things you'll regret later,
but love never will.

Love lifts you up.
It makes you look up.
It makes you think up.
It makes you a better person than you were before.